365 Days

12 months. 365 days. 1 year. No matter how you put it, it flies by.

I feel like I was just stumbling in the house from my drunken night ringing in 2019. Then I dozed off for a second and now it’s about to be 2020.

I know there’s so many people who can relate to this just by the daily conversations I have with everyone. The lady cashing me out at Target, my new coworker, my mom- they all say “Wow, how is it already almost 2020?” And I just want to say “I DON’T KNOW, YOU’RE STRESSING ME OUT.”

No, really though. It’s something we all hear from a young age. “Life goes faster as you get older.”

WELL SHIT. Y’all were definitely not lying, that’s for damn sure.

But as fast and terrifyingly as it goes by it’s still incredible to reflect on where you were walking into this year and where you are as you’re leaving it in the rear view.

For me, I’m leaving this year as a completely different person compared to the girl who started off this year.

Not only do I have a new job, a new car, a person that makes my heart happy, and I started a damn blog. But I also am leaving with different ways of thinking.

Sure, it’s cliche to have New Years resolutions but when you stick to the ones that are set and they impact your life so much its pretty incredible.

So what was mine? It was to wake up every day and start each day with a positive thought. Even if it was as simple as being thankful for opening my eyes to see another day- I did it. It made me even more grateful for the little things that we tend to brush over.

I also stopped letting the negativity and little things get to me as much as I once did. Damn, I wish I could sit here and tell you it was so easy but I would be a liar if I did that. It takes time, it takes cleaning. You have to clean your negativity up. Take a broom, walk around your life, sweep up the negative people and negative thoughts and throw those shits into your life garbage. Because I promise you in 365 days you will thank Lex.

Maybe 2019 wasn’t as spectacular as you hoped. Maybe you didn’t have eye-opening experiences like I did but I can promise you that your year for that will come. Luckily, 2020 is full of 365 more days- I lied its a leap year so you actually have 366 days to completely change your life if that’s what you need. You better not let February 29th go to waste.

No matter who you are I hope that 2020 is full of everything and everyone you need to feel complete. I hope that you see new places, eat new food, hear amazing new music, fall in love for the first time or all over again. I hope that everything and everyone that currently feeds your soul, stays. I hope that you are the happiest lil’ human you were meant to be.

Thanks for taking this wild ride with me this year. I can’t wait to fill your head with more nonsense next year through my letters.

Much love,

Lex.