New Year, Same Lex.

PEOPLE ARE STILL SAYING HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ME AT WORK. WHEN DO WE STOP SAYING THAT? I’m hoping sometime before February…

Well it’s been exactly a month since I’ve had more than an hour to sit and compose some thoughts for you readers.

Have you ever been so mentally exhausted that you literally don’t even know if your sentences are making sense? Yes? Great. I’m not the only one losing my mind. If you answered no- tell us your secrets.

What I’ve learned so far in these first 17 days of 2020 is that ADULTING IS HARD.

How on Earth am I supposed to go to work every day, clean at home, go to the gym, see my friends, see my boyfriend, have quality time with my family, pack my meals, shower, and do fun activities?!

Well I am learning the answer to that… slowly… very slowly…

I must admit I have been spoiled for 23 years. Having a part time job at 15 sure did get me into the working mode early but I just started my first “normal” job with set hours. It’s so weird doing things at the same time as other people.

I miss having a random 5 days off in a row. I miss going to Marshals and Target without there being 5 thousand people there. I miss making breakfast in my underwear at 9 am while no one is home.

I always thought I was someone who could adjust to change easily. And I still think that. But I don’t like change one bit. I am a creature of habit. Once I find a flow I like, I stick to it as long as I can. But then there’s time where I got bored as hell of the same old routine. That’s the Sagittarius in me- can never be in one place for too long.

I am such a contradiction to myself and I think I make myself crazier than I should be. But I think (and hope) I’m not the only one who does this.

We all know that the best things lay outside of our comfort zone, they lay within in the change that we frequently fear. Maybe our comfort zone is the same three bars to go to or maybe it’s the same routine at the gym because you don’t want to look like a fool.

Well let me tell you something here my friends. Even though I am stressed beyond the point of belief trying to adjust to this new lifestyle, it is the most rewarding thing ever. I get to look back and see how far I’ve come in just a few weeks. So step out of that comfort zone and let life change around you.

I know a lot of the time I write about all of this ‘wisdom’ that I’m full of and how unicorns shit rainbows in my life but I can admit that it definitely is not like that all the time.

I’m in a transitional part of my life with more changes than I can keep track of but it sure as hell is a fun ride so far.

So what about you?

Do you like change and the thrill of something new or do you resent it and like knowing what to expect?

Stay warm this weekend friends. I’ll be back soon.- Lex