Love, Lex

You know when life gets so crazy you barely have time to shower? Well, that was ALL of August for me. But I finally have a full free night which means I can dust off my laptop and welcome you back into my brain.

August was the busiest, and I am not exaggerating, busiest month of my life. I did not have one free day off where I had no work or no plans. I am not complaining about that either. It came at the perfect time when I needed to be distracted and surrounded by so much love. And that’s where my nonsense rambling begins today.

Love.

At 22 I’m just figuring out who I am and what I wanna do with my life but as many people know- I have an old soul. With that being said, I am an old-fashioned, hopeless romantic.

But not many people would know that since I am absolutely brutal at sharing my feelings and being emotional. (I know that’s surprising for some.) I don’t cry in front of many people, I don’t gush my feelings out, but when I do that’s when a person would know that it is my love showing.

I know a lot of people (especially guys) who are afraid of their feelings or who don’t show them. Kind of like me. It’s almost a weakness letting someone in and seeing the soft side. It’s like handing them a gun and trusting that they won’t shoot you. But once you realize not everyone is going to hurt you, you realize the beauty of it all.

The Adventure

“To love and be loved is one of the greatest adventures in life” was a quote I had hanging on my wall when I was 16 and although it’s now covered up by a map of the world I believe that still holds true.

For me, my favorite part of that adventure is getting to know the person. Learning what they like to eat, learning about their family, learning about what they want to do with their life. I just want to know everything and learn the in’s and out’s of their life.

I guess that’s why the adventure of falling in love in today’s world is pretty tough for some. I cannot stress enough how much I hate dating apps. Tinder, Bumble, and Hinge will never be seen on my phone because I cannot decide if I like you as a person based on a few pictures and a blurb. I know it works for some, but not this girl!

I know some of you are thinking “Honey, you are 22 what are you doing looking for love so young.” My answer to you is- I’m not. I’m letting life happen as the adventure that it is. What comes will come and what will go will go. I don’t have a plan to be married by a certain age like 12 year old Lex did. I just believe that I will end up where I am supposed to, when I am supposed to, with who I am supposed to be with.

And I just wish I could convince some people to think like me in that aspect. My four beautiful best friends have so much to offer whatever person they end up with and everyday I remind them that it will happen when its supposed to.

#Goals

Thankfully every person in my immediate family is in a loving relationship to show me exactly what I want someday. So many people compliment me and say ‘Your parents are so cute’ or ‘OMG your aunt and uncle are such goals”. And I smile and agree because it is damn true.

Lets talk about these love stories because I love telling people about them. For starters we can go back to my great grandparents. Even though I never met my great grandpa I know that he must’ve been one hell of a guy because even though he has been gone for over 30 years my great grandma said that he was the only love for her.

Now my Nonnie and Poppa. They are the epitome of what a relationship should be. Full of laughter, so much love, so many sarcastic jokes, building a family and business together. And their love showed their kids an example of how a man should treat a woman and how it all works.

My Mom and Jon went against the grain and have 9 years in between them. You would never know it though because they act like they’re both 17 making out in the halls of the high school. (Love you guys!!) But seriously, they are the reason I know I will end up where I am supposed to be. They show me that when it’s the right person no fight is big enough to end things, no amount of hugging and kissing is enough, and you can never say “I love you more” enough.

My aunts and uncles, brother and almost-sister-in-law, cousins, and best friends. Just more relationships that show me what I want to have some day. The relationships that let me be their third wheel and never get sick of me!

Thank you all for being my real life #goals.

Life Partner

To wrap up this love fest I want to give a piece of my advice.

For anyone who’s looking or waiting for love don’t just look for any person to hold an empty space.

You’re looking for a life partner.

Someone to go out and see the world with. Someone to eat new foods with in public and laugh as you try not to spit them out. Someone to have embarrassing firsts with. Someone to hold you when you cry just because your favorite character in a show died. Someone to eat a whole pizza with then laugh at your food babies together. Someone to fit in with your crazy family. Someone to be there every step of the way.

Be picky. Be selfish. But be patient.

And also be ready to get your heartbroken because life unfortunately is not a Netflix movie and as my family always tells me “you have to kiss a lot of frogs before you find a prince”.

If you’re a guy reading this I hope you don’t let the fear of showing your emotions get in the way of finding someone special. Don’t let your friends tell you a girl is crazy because she’s showing her emotion. Pretend it’s the 50’s and go up to her door on your first date. Impress her with holding a conversation and not staring at your phone. And lastly, don’t be a douchebag.

On that note. I hope you have either found your life partner or are being patient waiting for them. I hope you all experience that ‘butterflies in your stomach’ type love. And if not- you always have dogs.

Love, Lex.