Oh Baby, Baby

Hello my sweet readers! It’s been far too long since I’ve written but I took a much needed step back to figure out some rather important things in Lex’s life.

They say a lot can change in a year but a lot can change in less time than that. Since I wrote last we entered my absolute favorite season: FALL! It always has been my favorite and I think it will be forever. The second change, the biggest change: Manmeat and I are having a little babe!

I won’t get into all the personal details but after some time we figured we should take one and that sucker popped two pink lines instantly on August 16th.

Shock.

Shock was the only emotion we both felt.

Obviously everyone envisions themselves being so excited to find this news out but when you’re not planning it and your biggest worry was what you were gonna be for Halloween it’s not as exciting as you imagine.

I immediately took a picture of it and sent it to my four bestfriends in our group text and then another text to my cousin’s wife who’s also my bestfriend. I need clarity and advice and positive energy from people who were older than me and who have always helped me. Their responses were filled with utter joy and excitement and reminders that this is a gift no matter if it was planned or not.

No matter what they said it was ultimately up to Manmeat and I. After days of endless conversations, tears, weighing out all options, we decided that there was no reason not to keep this little nugget.

Almost every single person we told were filled with shock and excitement. It just confirmed for us that we have the best support systems and this was the right choice.

A few readers commented on my other post asking if I felt like my life was over and if I felt bad for ruining Manmeat and I’s younger years. Simply put: NO. Life doesn’t end with a child, life as you know it ends. Instead of just the two of us going on hikes, one of us is going to be backpacking a new life with us. Instead of sleeping in till 11am on Saturday’s we get to snuggle and keep our babe occupied. Yeah sure we won’t be able to have endless 3am drunken nights with our friends but it’s a part of life that came to us a little earlier than some prefer.

Manmeat and I have the most solid relationship I’ve ever been in and were planning into the future anyways so God was like “Hey I got a cool surprise for you guys!”

We both know how drastically this changes things and we both know the next year is gonna be filled with a lot of smelly diapers and long nights but we’ve finally gotten to the point where that initial shock wore off and curiosity and excitement set in.

The Reactions

“How do we tell everyone?!” The first major struggle. With our parents we just blurted it out and expected the worst but received nothing but excitement and support.

Our siblings were ecstatic. My little sister cried and said “Don’t joke with me!” because all she wanted was to be an aunt. She made all of us cry. This little nug is gonna be spoiled by their 5 aunts and uncles.

Our extended families and friends were so shocked and also just as excited. I have videos of my grandparents and screenshots of faces from the people we told. It was always terrifying but so exciting.

I’m so excited for each and every person to meet this little babe.

Where We Are Now

Ending the first trimester is the highlight of 2020. It has been filled with days of sleeping and throwing up and sleeping and more throwing up. My nose can pick up the faintest of scents, my stomach looks like I’m bloated from drinking beer all night, and I want to eat 5 Tim Hortons bagels a day. Trimester two is right around the corner which means we find out if nugget is a boy or girl so the real planning can begin!

We’re in the midst of looking for a place together so we can start this family under one roof.

We’re debating on names and laughing at silly ones. (This has been my favorite part)

Manmeat is being an absolute trooper dealing with me being ‘pukey and demanding’ in his words. I owe him like 498573 date nights eventually.

My mom is like my personal chef/waiter right now so I’m gonna owe her like 593732 dinners at my house too.

All in all this has been a hell of a ride so far and I can only imagine where it’s gonna go. I just know I am SO DAMN EXCITED TO HAVE A LITTLE BABE. Although it probably is going to be the farthest thing from little with our genetics….

Thank you for all the support so far. 2020 is one hell of a shocker. I blinked and it’s October. I’ll be writing again soon! Hopefully about all of the fall adventures I’ve been on.

Thanks for reading and don’t forget to go vote!!

xoxo Lex